NEW YEAR TEARS

Last Dec. 30, a day before the new year ends, I was ask to deliver a message in a Necrological Service of a friend, a well loved former superior of a realty due to his kindness and humility. I prayed hard not to cry in order for me to talk well and express my message clearly. Thanks God I successfully deliver my piece but can't help to be in tears as well, seeing the people around crying, instead.
Four days after, I recieved a shocking text message, a very dear friend of mine, Emmie died. She sufferred a heart attack, I cried out loud upon learning I lose a very close friend, a sister to each other. We are four buddybodies, the other two are Pura and April. We'd been friends for more than 20 years. We're inseparable, even though the realty we're working is no longer existing. I attended four sleepless nights of her wake. We her friends could not just leave her only 23 yr old daughter to arrange her mom's wake and burial.
Last Sunday, January 11, was Emmie's funeral. She was to be cremated at the Eternal Gardens. While she was at the window of the crematory, I was waved by my friends signing to come nearer as the time scheduled has come. I cried a lot when I said goodbye to a very dear friend, her friends and the people around were all crying. We were allowed to enter at the crematory room. Much pain felt seeing her being transferred for the actual cremation. I went out sobbing, I cant bear to see my dear friend, being cremated. Others peeped at the little window where they could see the actual process, I refused to. It's my first time to attend a cremation. It's true, it's nice for relatives to bring home the ashes but I preferred my loved ones to visit me at my tomb when the time comes. I don't favor cremation. Do you?