To Be A Single Mom

All my life , I found myself working. After graduation from high school, I was employed in a telegraph company, thus I was able to graduate at college as a working student. I accepted tutorials, I was recruited in sales, been a Tupperware manager, a Real Estate agent and been an Insurance underwriter and involve in other direct selling with different products. I was married to my co employee, George, after graduation from College. He was 7 years older than me. Hardworking but so friendly. He has friends from all walks of life. Professionals and non pro, young and old. Vendors, Messengers, and even men walking in the streets were all his friends. What would you expect a happy marriage surrounded with friends. We're blessed with three children. Every occasion, baptismal, birthdays and others is a big celebration. If there's a celebration there must be a drinking session, thus after the day of each occasion you'll see a pile of beer cases at home. Well, seeing my husband, happy and contented with friends all over, her wife has no complain. He works hard with a double job plus me myself is earning well, so live a life that's easy and happy. My husband was then very proud of me, for being so understanding compared to his friends wives who kept on nagging their husbands when caught drinking, humiliating them in front of their friends. Years passed, my husband got sick. He was diagnosed with chronic renal failure, thus a Dialysis is needed as we can not afford a kidney transplant either. He was forced to an early resignation. thus stayed at home as an out patient for the dialysis. Prior to this I resigned from office as I found Sales more challenging and promise better earnings. I focused on real estate, good I did, at first I can support the medical expenses but later it was already a rough situation as the dialysis which was once a month before now requires three times a day. One year and a half of struggle, inspite of all the efforts and the hardships, I still lost my husband. My daughter then, Cherry Fe was 12 yrs old, the second, Charo Mae was 10 and my youngest, a son 7 yrs old. Our house was silenced, no more festive mood, gone are the celebrations...no more laughter of friends...When I see the strict wives of my husband's friends, I just smile and whisper..."You're the wives, the husbands must be proud of". Too much understanding can lose a husband.
Thanks to my late mother, who took care of my children while I was working, in order to earn a living. Nothing would be greater than a love of a mother. Should not the help of her, everything won't come into order. I left early in the morning and go home late at night. Thanks to my boss at the realty for giving me advances to support the needs of the children. Their food and their education, thanks to my children too for studying hard and having scholarships as a result. My apology for my eldest Cherry Fe who was not able to finish her college studies as she was forced to an early employment, to help me support the family. God will bless her for her kind intentions if not now maybe later. Thank you Baby, your kind deed won't be forgotten, for sure you'll be reaping rewards from heaven...To all the friends whom I ran to most of the time, to lean to, in times of need...my gratitude.
To be a single mom is not an easy task but later you'll realized, it's an accomplishment. After all the running you did to beat the timetable for certain things, after withstanding all the hardships to see your children now grown up, looking back to the past of perspiration and tears...thinking of unending disappointments and failures , but with the faith in God Almighty, above all these, behind the clouds lies a silver lining...
Sixteen years after, I found myself at home, rested with my children, a son in law and a grand baby. My eldest, Cherry Fe is now 28 with a cute 2 yr old girl Chloee, Charo Mae is now 26 and a high school teacher while my youngest Christian Jay, 23 an accounting staff at a prestigious Insurance co. and enjoying a college scholarship at one of the Manila Universities. My children preferred me to stay at home attend to their needs and live with the internet
At 53 I am rested. Living with a very simple life, enjoying the love and care of the children plus the happiness my grand daughter brings. A bonding with the family during free times and on every occasion whom each of us missed during the early days is just now happening and a time to thank God during weekends and every time possible to bring him back all the glory, for all the love and blessings He showered us during our happy and rough times.
Am not used to not earning , however, should there will be an opportunity to earn, am more than willing to work again, maybe a sideline, a litle business, just to keep life going without sacrificing the happiness of the family but instead be of help and a bread winner once again. So, help me God.